blehh


ahh so sweet he thought of my injury when deciding where to go tmr though it's really no big deal :)


never felt so right :)

so far so good. he was busier than me last week so i actually jumped at every opportunity to see him, jokingly complaining that he's too busy for me. this week he's been so sweet trying to make up for it... he wanted to ask me out after church today but i had dinner at home. then just now on msn he was "i know we're already meeting on tuesday and thurs....but you doing anything tml? =D" my heart just melted. it's a good sign right? haha. that i don't feel suffocated despite all these frequent meetings. and i keep thinking about him too. sweet sweet love.

i've been trying to figure out the love language of both of us. i think his is time, acts of service and touch. try as i might... i still can't figure out what mine are. haha.


it's nice to know you're right there when i feel like being alone with myself. i think i'm like a cat sometimes, in that way. i need to feel the solitaryness in order to feel like myself, and in fact, sometimes i miss how common friends used to see us as different entities - i wonder if there can be a way to go back to that stage somehow.

but it's also nice to know you'll always be right there when i feel like reaching out.


the sweetest thing.

excerpt from an msn convo (:

share something else with you ok...
sometime i shared with the guys tonight
you may not believe...but...it's a true story
over the past few months...i talked to God a lot about singlehood and getting attach
and i was determined to stay single for at least a while more...
i was convinced that i had a couple more years of singlehood
i told God...I will have the strength to stay single and keep my heart away from any girl for now
except from one girl
you!
but at the same time...i thought you would never fall for me...so i thought i got it covered...i'm gonna follow the plan without a hitch
when you asked me to join in for vietnam...i thought...
what is God up to...why the Blessing to travel with you for grad trip
and finally when you fell asleep next to me...after MR FANTASTIC FOX....haha...
I prayed onced more...Lord you're amazing!
ok..i told the guys a shorter version of this
and now they all want an ipod touch with movies loaded on it


thoughts from the mermaid chair.

there's a huge difference between loving and being loved.

there's a type of love which consumes you but only belongs to the moment, in the shadowy lines of your soul.

there's a another type of love which you live with, make pancakes in the morning with, laugh and talk about work with, a habit, growing to be a part of yourself.