Watching the world.

I'm happy for you.
I'm happy for all the happy people out there.
Just wish I could be happy too.


Met up with my darling dotties for dinner. Pity Mingfong couldn't come though, we really miss her!

It felt a little awkward at first but we soon settled into familarity again. The same old jokes that crack us up each time. I have to see them more often.

I think I'll go visit Yui at her house after school whenever I'm free next time because it's so near anyway. Got plans to crash her school too haha. It's harder to meet up with Daner and Ying because they're all the way at Boon Lay.

One more week to term-break!

I can't wait for my daddy to come home from Australia.




That was at Impressmu, MOS.

Guess what? I think I'm getting used to the whole class participation thing. Like it's not stress anymore, it's just speak-up-when-you-have-something-to-say. Which actually comes quite naturally as long as you're listening in class.

I think I'm schizophrenic? Cos I'm quite loving school now! Yes, even with all our mid-terms coming up. It's still slack compared to JC.

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Yes it's Friday! Went walking around Marina Square with Si Ye today. She was nice to accompany me though I barely knew her. Then I met up with the girls to try the new Waraku Pasta followed by dessert at Coffee Club. Had a fun-filled time as usual. I guess the only down-point was when Huifen asked if we ever regretting going to our respective unis. This hit the spot because I was envying what Marie was studying in NUS the whole night. Not that I dislike business, just that Philosophy, Psychology and all that artsy crap is what I've always been comfortable in, and I realised that I already know things which she is studying there, because I've read up on these areas on my own in the past. Furthermore, I don't feel very bonded to the people in SMU yet. Though I enjoy my classes, especially Financial Accounting because I really like the people I sit with, at the end of the class, we still go our separate ways, and there's no chance to form real solid friendships. I hope it's still too early to tell though.

Argh I'm so fickle-minded. Some days I'm so glad I'm in SMU and love life here to bits, other days - like today - I wished I was somewhere else.

Pace is going to pick up from next week. I'm going for NiteBike tomorrow, which means my Sunday will be gone because I will be zonked out. I'll have Salsa on Monday and possibly dance at night. So on Tuesday, I'll have to complete my homework, case-study, prepare for my presentation and study for my in-class assignment. I guess Final Theory will have to wait till later. My driving's so neglected I wonder when I can ever touch a steering wheel.

The reason why I keep this blog as private as possible is because I want the words written here to stay here.


I've just completed my assignment and case study. Hurray! And they are not due until Wednesday. I'm so glad I'm finally learning not to procrastinate. Hope I have the motivation to keep it up though.

Salsa class tomorrow and then dance with the AJ Alumni on Tuesday. Ms Yong says she wants to bring our dancing to a whole new level and she's working on our technique so now, every practice is a challenge and we go home with every single muscle aching. But it's cool. At least I get to do some exercise and lose off all the fats I've been gaining these days.

Mom's pampering us too much. Buying us all kinds of snacks like tea-eggs, soon kuehs, mooncakes, raisins, yoghurt etc in the middle of the day! They usually get finished within an hour or two, and we still go out for lunch/dinner afterwards. Plus supper with 2505 last night! Initially I didn't have high hopes about it because it seemed like nobody was free but in the end Dorene, Marie, Huifen, Sarah, Darren, Frank, Wenjie and even Jiejie and Meimei came! I was so happy to see all of them again! We were laughing so much even on the way to Newton because we were squashed like sardines in Sarah's car and Sarah's parking was hilarious. The food was good, the company was great... and even though it was only a short two hours spent together, it sure brightened up my week.

Well to end off, I was searching for pictures with the keyword "nostalgia" in gettyimages and these are two that struck a chord in me.




I wonder if anyone else feels the same. Yeah I know I do really random things. Anyway, it's one. I think I should be turning in before I get hungry and fatten feed myself again.


I'm going for dance tomorrow morning. Yes, after all my deliberations over the past few months and my decision of not to dance for next year's performance, I'm finally giving in 12 hours before the first practice. Why am I doing this when I am already so busy? I have to go to school almost 7 days a week for classes and project meetings. And CCAs haven't even started yet. I am so courting my own doom.

Lots of people have been telling me that SMU is stressing them out and they are growing to hate school because everything is so hectic. But I kind of enjoy the busyness. I like the feeling when I rush for the next lesson, laptop in my arms, taking large strides down the concourse. Because the snapshot I get in my head when I see myself in this scene is one of purpose and direction. Albeit a very superficial one because that's only what it looks like. It's still a start I guess. Plus it makes me feel as if I'm one of the characters in the OC or something, because that's what they always do in school.

It was quite an eventful night at MOS yesterday. I enjoyed it but after my talk with Amanda after supper, I realise that it's all so wrong. Shallow joys like getting tipsy, dancing with strangers, hanging out the whole night with people you don't know well at all. Didn't help that Dorene and I were both feeling upset so we drank more than we normally would have. What are we seeking in there actually? The land of flashing neon lights, and thumping music. Where everyone is happy and filled with energy. Why are we so blindly drawn to it like moths to lights?