six months.

forced to trust in Him like never before. honestly speaking, because i don't have a choice anymore - because this time there's really nothing else i can do and no one else i can turn to. i feel sorry that things turned out such that He is my last resort instead of my first. i feel sorry that my faith is no longer as energised, rather, i feel like i'm entering a period of spiritual drought, and i'm barely hanging on to my last lifeline. don't, don't let me go God.

/edit 12 july 2010, 9.19pm: prayed in tongues last night and finally felt His supernatural peace fall upon me once again. i professed that Jesus was already my victory in these things and stopped worrying about the issues. true enough, today, when i went to attend marie's convocation. not once did a single worry cross my mind, and guess what. i got a call from the company i applied for- bizarrely, it sounded as if the lady wanted to hire me even without me first attending an interview. and on the way home, meiying messaged to tell me that we got our bids for BOSS. what else can i say but, hallelujah :)



just found out one of my acquaintances is going to sweden next sem for exchange too. i. really. felt. very. sour. and. sad. the exact same feeling one would get if you find out your ex is together with another girl. i don't know why i'm finding it so hard to re-adjust back.