This post is to remind myself.

Because if I don't remind myself, then as time passes, my assurance will just fade, as it did again and again.

This morning, I was at Raffles City MacDonald's having breakfast, just staring out of the window and waiting for Amanda. I was bored but I didn't feel like taking out my books to read yet, so I just stared out of the glass walls, watched a few people walk past, and listening to the radio.

You know, I've always wondered whether the path I've chosen was the path that was meant for me. In the past year, I have always believed fervently so. Because of so many things that happened, little things, little tests and bargains I made with the Big Guy Upstairs... I think we're not really supposed to do that, but I was really unsure if I was going in the right direction. And even though I know He's always listening, being the human me who is still full of uncertainty and doubt, I like to kinda test it sometimes, just to check (I know, I know, not supposed to).

But Thank God He is really always listening. Last year, during my Finance presentation, one of my group members got my name wrong on the presentation slide. And he totally didn't know about anything at all. That was the week pastor preached about signs. And I was so darn happy.

Then another time, I was at karaoke with the skaters. And I made a silent bet that if "Love Me" was the song someone was looking for, then, I was still heading in the right direction. It was. Of course, all these could be coincidences. It really depends what you believe. And this year, my confidence wavered, I was prepared to lose all hope.

And I did, never thinking any more of it.

Until today. I suddenly thought of it again. And somehow, out of nowhere, (really out of nowhere, because I hadn't thought about the issue in a very long time) I made yet another silent bet... that if "You Belong with Me" played on the radio before I left MacDonald's, I would keep holding on. Song after song played by, and Amanda came. I had already forgotten about my wager and was excitedly talking to Amanda when she stopped me in the middle of my sentence and gestured to the radio upwards. I had no idea at all what she was referring to when the familiar tune rang out to me..."You're on the phone, with your girlfriend, she's upset..."

I was stunned beyond words, I just looked at her, mouth agape. I literally couldn't believe my ears! But there it was, playing overhead.

Really. What are the chances. Although now a little bit of doubt is creeping in that it might might all be just a coincidence, I think it is likely that it is a God-incidence instead. And even when I forgot about my wager, He remembers all the minute details in my life. I felt so happy after that. I really hope I don't forget this, and I don't lose my confidence again. True enough, I still don't know what to do. But I think I have a vague picture of what's awaiting me, and I know that God will make all things work out for good to those who love Him in the end.

He is really awesome in this place.

(ps* Amanda got saved today! :D)
(pps* This post is purely my personal reminder. If you disagree, then go away. Haha.)